beard

i don't know if the entire structure of my blog is going to come crashing down or not, but i shaved today, so it's more like matt the schoolboy with a little patch of something on his chin. but brookie likes it, and i like her, so that equals the square root of we made out tonight. night night.

a lone lonely loner

so glad this week is over. i had a calc test last friday (100%), and then a bio and chem test on wednesday. there was just a lot of new material and this was my first test with the bio professor who teaches the second half of the evolution course. so i was pretty nervous. i feel like i did well, but who knows, i really will throw up if i get a B on a test, but i know it has to happen sooner or later. i didn't get a lot of time to check my answers, which always makes me uneasy, but i was well prepared, so what else can i do. the hard part was that my family was in sheridan wyoming, with my parents for my kids spring break. i wish i could explain the feeling of coming home at 11pm at night, and the house is empty except for our dumb noisy hamster. at that late hour, i don't want to make a big dinner, so what is easy? chili dogs. so gross. i woke up 5 hours later still tasting chili. i wanted to do one of those movie shower scenes where i start crying and slowly sink down in the shower, clenching my fists, but instead i just took a plain shower, and skipped the academy award winning performance. but still it was a hard week. my daughter gave me a rubber band that i think she took off some asparagus and told me to wear it so i would remember her. so i still have it on, and will probably wear it till it falls off. i just love my kids and wife and have to figure out some way to be able to continue to get quality time with them. cinderella (the band, not the cartoon lady) knew what they were saying with "don't know what you've got, till it's gone". actually i did know what i had, and it's not gone, just not there as much. i should write a song called " i already knew what i had, but if i didn't, i would know once it was gone, even though it's not, it's just not there as much." i could have it playing in the background during my crouching in the shower scene. please let some producer read this blog one day.

physician shadowing

i got my first opportunity to shadow over spring break when we were in st. george. it actually felt really amazing to be with an actual doctor, watching actual procedures, not just wheeling someone around or distributing blankets. and it was my friend randy, who is an interventional radiologist, so i got to see what a day in the life of IR is like. i'm so excited to get going and do some real work. it was exciting to hear from him about the business side of it. he has his own group that he is a partner of, as well as partners with another guy where they own a vein clinic. i want to make sure and explore different business opportunities when i get done, especially since i'll be pushing 50 with probably 300 grand of debt. i'm going to need to get some money working so i'm not working till i'm 95. but anyway, it was great to get in on some action, and i can't wait to go back and get some more exposure. next time it will be actual IR procedures, where this one was a shift in the vein clinic. got to see lots of white legs, lots of veins and 80 percent of the patients were polygamist women, so the party was intense. randy wore a spongebob surgery cap, which i didn't really agree with, but all in all, it was an amazing day.