a lone lonely loner

so glad this week is over. i had a calc test last friday (100%), and then a bio and chem test on wednesday. there was just a lot of new material and this was my first test with the bio professor who teaches the second half of the evolution course. so i was pretty nervous. i feel like i did well, but who knows, i really will throw up if i get a B on a test, but i know it has to happen sooner or later. i didn't get a lot of time to check my answers, which always makes me uneasy, but i was well prepared, so what else can i do. the hard part was that my family was in sheridan wyoming, with my parents for my kids spring break. i wish i could explain the feeling of coming home at 11pm at night, and the house is empty except for our dumb noisy hamster. at that late hour, i don't want to make a big dinner, so what is easy? chili dogs. so gross. i woke up 5 hours later still tasting chili. i wanted to do one of those movie shower scenes where i start crying and slowly sink down in the shower, clenching my fists, but instead i just took a plain shower, and skipped the academy award winning performance. but still it was a hard week. my daughter gave me a rubber band that i think she took off some asparagus and told me to wear it so i would remember her. so i still have it on, and will probably wear it till it falls off. i just love my kids and wife and have to figure out some way to be able to continue to get quality time with them. cinderella (the band, not the cartoon lady) knew what they were saying with "don't know what you've got, till it's gone". actually i did know what i had, and it's not gone, just not there as much. i should write a song called " i already knew what i had, but if i didn't, i would know once it was gone, even though it's not, it's just not there as much." i could have it playing in the background during my crouching in the shower scene. please let some producer read this blog one day.